I've got heavy eyelids
It's hard to resist, full of skids

But I don't want to fall asleep
For it is then that they slowly creep
Gathering for another of those mental orgies
Those passionate yet fearful memories

They grab at every inch of my skin
They like not being forgotten
These are not dreams, nor nightmares
These are my deepest fears

I can no longer sleep
I keep on staying awake
Afraid of the pain
There's too much at stake

Staring into that bottomless lake
I let the letters rain
The words, true and fake
The price to never dream again

This is not insomnia
This is my only phobia