What a joke it is
That months and years
Can be so rapidly sheared
By too many damned words

How funny it is
That despite so many talks
My heart was never your landmark
And you left me, out cold to freeze

How comic it is
That you don't even realise
Not facing & rectifying your mistakes
Made reasons and whys, but fake

How dumb it is
That I thought you would never
Play me ever
But you did bring me to my knees

How unfair it is
That I will never hear her
Her stories & her sleepy purr
Stockholmed me at ease

How easy it is
Cutting me out
Sick and exiled out
With the keychain & memoirs

How lucky it is
That we never took any vows
For you would have broken them already
In health ready, but in sickness gone baby!

So that's how it is,
Therapy and burning energy
Sedates me to sleep
So I cannot weep

Yet...
Despite the shove
Only love
No regret

A life brought in this ratrace

Fruit of a vase rife with thrace,

Destitute thought and grace

A soul lovingly embraced

But a hole full of distaste

What is it that cannot be effaced?

A blazing riot in this carcase

Never ready, never braced

An ever empty vase 

A growing clot pounding a deep bass

This world a fucking disgrace

Only a shitty marketplace

A matter of birthplace, color and race

Someone give it some streptokinase

Or a gun to save some face

A body bludgeoned by a mace

Again and again, a faster pace

This interface of too many a poker face

A must for the lust to get to third base

Social, cyber, all a waste of space

Let the heart under, so it finds solace

I still remember those summer noons; when your eyes sparkled and made me swoon
I still remember those early mornings ; when on seeing you deep asleep, I thanked Allah for my blessings
I still remember those passionate nights; when we would be entwined, holding each other with all our might
I still remember every second; when you and I were in love before it all got siphoned.

Remember the golden days; when we found our happiest ways
Remember those silent streets; where walking along together was a treat
Remember those silly moments of anticipation; when the thought of meeting was the biggest passion
Remember that wintery night; when being together was the only guiding light

Do remember the good times we had; and forget those that make you sad
Do remember the love you felt; and the desserts we ate when we were svelte

And when you do; forget not to tell me that you love me too...

Chasing time and again

Obsessed

Not worrying about the pain

Prey of a love confessed

Why doth the heart pine?

For that inexistent sign?

Listen, for the heart is but a swine

So shatter this meaningless shrine

And don't go breaking your heart over me

For it will be one sin too many

Immortal, I live on

Without any memories of my past

I seek redemption

For all those felled by my blades

This life goes by fast

As I roar through the decades

My smile is a facade

As my life, a charade

Haunted by the woman I love

Who cherishes another

My fist clenches in a glove

As my chest is torn asunder

Masked and alone I stand

Even though broken

I watch the pendulum

While cursing adamantium

My existence is a disease,

Without any vaccine

Feared by Hades,

I am Wolverine

Everything fades into insignificance

As she makes her appearance

Like a freshly bloomed daisy

Spring making it all better to see

Like the blossoms on a cherry tree

She has grace, majesty

She wasn't human, she was a deity

Such was her beauty

So lost was I, in my passion

That I didn't notice her deception

She was playing me

Her new toy

Still I bore the agony

For atleast I brought her joy

Until the day I broke

And I found myself in a corner

Trying to put myself together

And realised: I'm just a joke

A heart alive
Undying, constantly thriving
It started feeling
You being the drive

Hope came along
It started dreaming, cherishing

It kept on wishing
Ignorant and wrong

Realisation dawned
Love dethroned and hope condoned

Such was the pain
Everything looked mundane

A heart's last beat
The cause of such deceit
A true love lost
The heart crumbled to dust

No place to call home

For all this while

During this exile

She was left to roam

Striving to survive

Trying to stay alive

Mustering every ounce of will

In trying to resist evil

Her close ones never held out a hand

Showing just how much they cared

They only just smeared

So she had to take a stand

She weaved herself a cocoon

Closed out the world

Got labelled a loon

And inside she curled and unfurled

For so long she was left alone

Her chest now harbours a stone

In hate she is clad

As she lost the little humanity she hadq

The mask is there
For you not to stare
Not to look into these eyes
And find nothing there
Besides the things you despise

Forget not, remember
What I did to them in Winter
The heartless massacre
Judgement I had to deliver

Pinkish tinge of snow
Frozen blood that couldn't flow
Their carcasses food for the crow

An agent of chaos
I am the reason for your loss
Your lethal enemy
The only cause for this anarchy

So love me not,
Pity the abyss in me
Kill me, set me free
Gift me death and let me rot

I've got heavy eyelids
It's hard to resist, full of skids

But I don't want to fall asleep
For it is then that they slowly creep
Gathering for another of those mental orgies
Those passionate yet fearful memories

They grab at every inch of my skin
They like not being forgotten
These are not dreams, nor nightmares
These are my deepest fears

I can no longer sleep
I keep on staying awake
Afraid of the pain
There's too much at stake

Staring into that bottomless lake
I let the letters rain
The words, true and fake
The price to never dream again

This is not insomnia
This is my only phobia

A heart aches
As it breaks

Like a melted snowflake
Now part of the lake

A soul fades
As the void invades

Denied humanity
Inherited uncertainty

A heart broke
As a soul was choked

Nothing but a worthless dime
With your "Maybe another time..."

I've fallen again
All honor down the drain
Transcended by the ecstasy
The pleasure it offered to me

Reasoning gone in a whiff
Death slowly creeping on with each sniff
I can feel its breath down my neck
As I get closer to being a wreck

Indeed I am broken
The end is no longer an if but a when
You're to blame, yes, you friend
Coz you never even extended a helping hand

You heard not my silent cries of help
My torn soul's shouts and yelps
No one to hear, none of you near
I shed the very last tear

And I delved further down the darkness
To make up for this emptiness
And I found this addiction, my adulteress
That precious temptress, my only empress

A face scarred by chasmy
Your sweet and lethal enemy
Icy traits define her
Defiled by agony and anger

You made her believe in a fairytale
And left her to scream and wail
Till her throat bled
And dried were the tears she shed

So hard was the ache
Countless nights you kept her awake
She's lost her identity
Just another nameless entity

She's gone amiss
Engulfed by the abyss
Consumed from within
By a love she believed in...

I woke up this morning
With my eyes burning
And tears streaking

You were never mine
Yet, why, oh why do I pine?
Everything's gonna be just fine

That's the subject of my monologue
Since I was enchanted by you, mystagogue
It helps a little to pull through
In trying to get over you

Yes, I thought I was healed
But I'm lost in this wreckage
Unable to register the message
In your love's thorny field

I have understood
But this heart of mine
It does still whine
Its passion is too crude

Please, Maiden, don't misunderstand
I've tried to be the better man
And I wish you well
But more importantly, farewell
For I have sought refuge in Mnemosyne's den

Not a tune
That could make you swoon
No sign of any boon

Not a sound
That could turn time around
And not make you stound

No melody
That could let me be
And make you happy

Nothing
Twang of the string
Listen to this broken violin

Treading down this soggy lane
Pins and needles prodding his foggy brain
This is not just another nightmare
For this is where he was stripped bare

Missing links in the memories flooding
The photographic kaleidoscope keeps on playing
Stringing together the hazy stills
Amnesia or side-effects of those pills?

Groggy, he walks with that swagger
Longing to steady for a breather
A chill creeping down his spine
Ruling the land of the blind

This strange voice in his head
Different from the usual threat
This looming menace aiming for the zenith
Tormenting the dormant that crawl beneath

This is a fragment of his visions,
His hallucinations, his schizophrenic conversations

Aimer hors de naiveté

Sans voir le reflet

Qui vous ensorcèlerait

Adorer à tout jamais

Elle qui vous a enivrés

Un coeur en fer

Et une flamme de passion

Une femme dans ce coeur

Et on ne connait plus la raison

"Mais qui a reveillé nos démons?"

Vos mémoires d'elle et vos larmes

Chaque goutte de l'averse

Est une lame qui vous transperce

Succombé à son charme

On devient sourd dans le vacarme

Aimer de tous ses sens

Jours et nuits

Mourir en silence

Un amour qui vous fuit

dont l'existence ne fût

Mais chaque jour on meurt satisfait

Sans arrière-pensée ni regret

En se disant: "Oui, j'ai aimé."

I believed I had a heart

Before we grew apart

It then felt like an aneurysm

With some unexplainable mechanism

Denying that I was forsaken

Not understanding that I was broken

I just went on

Not realising I couldn't hold on

My feelings gone rancid

My veins, a haven for acid

In my chest, shadows feast

Scary thoughts, dreamless sleep

Left in a forest so deep,

How can anyone not turn in a beast?

And so, I believe I no longer have a heart

Beneath my ribs, demons lurk

The aneurysm did its work

I am now a piece of art...

I can't keep on writing

I can't cope

The darkness is frightening

My fingers are trembling

Not from the dope

This is the end of the road

My mind is closing

My brain will soon stop functioning

Demons I don't wanna goad

Tearing at the endless hell below

Deepening the abyss

Annihilating all sorrow and woe

Creating a new nemesis

This is another genesis

I won't suffocate

Gotta wait for it to abate

Or leave it all to fate?

Stopped wondering what went amiss

No longer in stasis

Couldn't understand, still can't tell

Only one word: Farewell...

Undoubtedly it's the end

But we'll walk this dead stretch of road

Just one last time hand in hand

With all the memories aboard

Ask not for an explanation

For you will be overwhelmed with desperation

Water falls not from our eyes

We live on throughout the ages

Unaffected by the sands of time

And a smile plays in disguise

We are not hunters

Nor do we fall as prey

We are the needles in the hay

The shade of truth you long for in darkness

and the whisper of kindness

Survival is our cursed blessing

Immortal is our kind

And yes, last thing:

Love we shall never find.