It is winter in my heart

Icy gales blow through my chest

Tearing me apart

Leaving me to my demons' behest

Shrouded in an opaque veil

The fog falls on my soul

It brings along whispers of a tale

Alas! It only makes my soul wail

My breaths, lost

For my lungs are coated in frost

I heave time and again

And each inhalation spikes the pain

The snow falls and blankets

My memories, it covets

Pearly white and shiny

Frozen underneath, blue me

This enslaved heart

With all of its beats unheard

Like the silence of a caged bird

With its vocals torn apart

To break that cage of solitude

Seeking riddance from this servitude

Alas! An impasse!

As the heart is the servant of a lass

And when it comes to freedom

The heart has not that wisdom

Chasing time and again

Obsessed

Not worrying about the pain

Prey of a love confessed

Why doth the heart pine?

For that inexistent sign?

Listen, for the heart is but a swine

So shatter this meaningless shrine

And don't go breaking your heart over me

For it will be one sin too many

Immortal, I live on

Without any memories of my past

I seek redemption

For all those felled by my blades

This life goes by fast

As I roar through the decades

My smile is a facade

As my life, a charade

Haunted by the woman I love

Who cherishes another

My fist clenches in a glove

As my chest is torn asunder

Masked and alone I stand

Even though broken

I watch the pendulum

While cursing adamantium

My existence is a disease,

Without any vaccine

Feared by Hades,

I am Wolverine

Born and bred

Of hate, pain and fear

I was constantly fed

Until I dropped that last tear

Feeling that disease spread

Disgust made way as fear fled

I could feel it squirm and scream

Flowing through my bloodstream

Filled with dread

I was taunted as I bled:

"I would never truly be dead

For my home is your head"

Everything fades into insignificance

As she makes her appearance

Like a freshly bloomed daisy

Spring making it all better to see

Like the blossoms on a cherry tree

She has grace, majesty

She wasn't human, she was a deity

Such was her beauty

So lost was I, in my passion

That I didn't notice her deception

She was playing me

Her new toy

Still I bore the agony

For atleast I brought her joy

Until the day I broke

And I found myself in a corner

Trying to put myself together

And realised: I'm just a joke

The words are demons
Eating away at me

The phrases are weapons
Used for torturing me

They haunt, and devour
Always seeking power

Never the redeemer
Least of all the saviour

Feeding on my soul time and again
Giving me pleasure and pain

I restrain the urge but fail
As the syllables wail

For this is the needle
With which you never fiddle

An eternal riddle
My unsolvable puzzle

I knew not what love was
For mine was a heart behind bars

There was an unbreakable wall
With a glance every so often

And a smile every now and then
She came along and made it fall

Hers ways ever more lovelier
Compelling me to wonder

What if I got down on a knee,
Would she agree?

So much to say
About this journey
From that day to today
You've never left me

All these years
So many laughs and tears
The love, care and affection
Made me the person I am today

You taught me the right way
Led me through the complications
Stood by me every step of the way
Until this day, here today

So today, I honour you
For all that you've been through
Only to bring me to this day
So I bow to both of you
And say "Thank you!"

Mother, father
We'll love you forever
Until our last breath,
In death, and even after

A heart alive
Undying, constantly thriving
It started feeling
You being the drive

Hope came along
It started dreaming, cherishing

It kept on wishing
Ignorant and wrong

Realisation dawned
Love dethroned and hope condoned

Such was the pain
Everything looked mundane

A heart's last beat
The cause of such deceit
A true love lost
The heart crumbled to dust

Sky, lovely sky
You make my heart race you know why

Sky, cheeky sky
You're a feast for heart, soul and mind

Sky, stormy sky
If ever you do cry, my shoulder will be close by

Sky, cunning sky
I know now why your first name means "sly"

Sky, trustworthy sky
Become my lifelong companion, loyal ally

Sky, gorgeous sky
Let's have lie-ins together and let time fly

Sky, everlasting sky
Be by my side and never say goodbye

No place to call home

For all this while

During this exile

She was left to roam

Striving to survive

Trying to stay alive

Mustering every ounce of will

In trying to resist evil

Her close ones never held out a hand

Showing just how much they cared

They only just smeared

So she had to take a stand

She weaved herself a cocoon

Closed out the world

Got labelled a loon

And inside she curled and unfurled

For so long she was left alone

Her chest now harbours a stone

In hate she is clad

As she lost the little humanity she hadq

Living for fear
Hearing the fall of a tear

Ecstasy, exhilaration
Arousing, exciting

Lost in this affliction
Alone, cloning and conjuring

Blissful utopia of mine
Iniquity ruling the mind

Nihilism is indeed the real deal
As round and round, goes Time's Wheel

A wind of roses blew
As I whispered a song for you
Whispering under my breath
My veins bulging with meth

Dark and deep was the abyss
When my love for you went amiss
But still I kept on singing
In hope you would hear something

But then a wind of thorns blew
One which I couldn't get through
For you, I fought on
Even broken, I held on

Even after so much and so long
I don't even know where I went wrong
Never did I stop whispering my song
Even though, maybe to you, I didn't belong...

This is something shitty, for the people who can't let us be
So here we go, with the flow
A description of them, hopefully their requiem

There are fakes, who know nothing of the stakes
And the hypocrites, devoid of any wit
Forget not the hunks, who have souls devoid of any spunk

Hopefully soon to die, the bitches, spreading rumours
Least of all, the blabbermouths, lacking in couth
You're not worth a buck, so we don't give a fuck

You're all eyesores, bores and fucking whores
If you had any sense at all, you'd hide in a hole
Don't ask why, for your own sake just die...

Inspiration just won't come
A lack of momentum

An unsolvable conundrum
An answer none can fathom

Ebbed has been the flow
Venom engendering rage and woe

Stuck inside for the meantime
Frustration rules prime

Neurons without spark
Not a single useful quark

This is no passion
It's more of an addiction

And the ink flows on
Describing this verbal starvation

The mask is there
For you not to stare
Not to look into these eyes
And find nothing there
Besides the things you despise

Forget not, remember
What I did to them in Winter
The heartless massacre
Judgement I had to deliver

Pinkish tinge of snow
Frozen blood that couldn't flow
Their carcasses food for the crow

An agent of chaos
I am the reason for your loss
Your lethal enemy
The only cause for this anarchy

So love me not,
Pity the abyss in me
Kill me, set me free
Gift me death and let me rot

My mind wanders
And a smile lingers

As I foster
A thought of her

A memory of the last meeting
Where she was just breathtaking

The clock ticks faster
Whenever I'm around her

I enjoy living
For she's within

Like sunshine,
She makes everything look just fine

She's divinity,
My only shot at humanity

I've got heavy eyelids
It's hard to resist, full of skids

But I don't want to fall asleep
For it is then that they slowly creep
Gathering for another of those mental orgies
Those passionate yet fearful memories

They grab at every inch of my skin
They like not being forgotten
These are not dreams, nor nightmares
These are my deepest fears

I can no longer sleep
I keep on staying awake
Afraid of the pain
There's too much at stake

Staring into that bottomless lake
I let the letters rain
The words, true and fake
The price to never dream again

This is not insomnia
This is my only phobia

There was happiness inside of me

The something that made me content

For which there was no warrant

Through this feeling, intoxicated you be

There was love inside of me

The cause of jealousy

Yet giving me glee

Through it, heaven I could see

There was sadness inside of me

The tears of melancholy

Where despair and gloom rule

Suicide was the way for the fool

There was violence inside of me

Twisted anger and uncontrollable hate

Seeking only to break free

For too long had been the wait

There is nothing inside of me

For after you left me

I tore my dried up heart 

From my chest

I made a new start 

Became a demon at your behest

A heart aches
As it breaks

Like a melted snowflake
Now part of the lake

A soul fades
As the void invades

Denied humanity
Inherited uncertainty

A heart broke
As a soul was choked

Nothing but a worthless dime
With your "Maybe another time..."

So began the awakening

Of something beyond your usual evil

From man to beast

Readying for another feast

Another carnal kill

This is not just vicious

The blood, bile and pus

The razor sharp claws on those monstrous paws

The blood soaked fangs within those feral jaws

All that makes it the ultimate predator

Though powerless versus silver

Triggered by the full moon

The hatching of the cocoon

Mistake it not for your usual demon

For this is beyond

Shadow of what was once human

This is a Lycan

Is this a cold or a flu?
Never knew the difference, it's true
Same chesty cough and the migrain
The leaky nose and the blinding pain

I need a remedy, quick and easy
Coz I am getting dizzy
And this looks like a degenerating problem
There's a medical cocktail bombarding my system
From pain relievers to antibiotics
I still think I can manage without the medics

Just when I thought I was getting better
I see looming signs of an incoming fever
Time for me to get the chills
So back on the bed, under the quilt,
In order to protect this body from the wilt

Another new symptom, the constricted throat
I don't feel I'll be able to stay afloat
And along comes the throwing up
Good thing it's not me with the mop

Tell me please
What is this disease?
Have a peek, in an artery or a vein
In my thorax, my limbs and my brain
And get rid of the pain

I fell for you
With the first glimpse I had
My pulse went up a tad
Seeing you, delicate as morning dew

You make my heart sway
Like the wind, the hay
You blow me away
Every moment of every day

I see that face of yours
Be my eyes open or closed
Are you a hallucination?
Or simply the deity of passion?

I love your playful gaze
And your cheeky ways
Your sight soothes and relieves
And your voice deaves

I know not if I deserve this happiness
But I'll do my very best
To make you rise from the rest
This, I promise you princess

There used to be a little boy
Always in the corner, deemed coy
Nobody knew what lay beneath
He was only a sheath

The horrors he had to witness
Cause he couldn't hide
Made him hollow inside
An empty shell with an abscess

A sinful being that kept him awake at night
The pulsing wrath, hate and spite
Squirming and screaming to be let out
Trying to make him give in, blackout

One day he could no longer take it
He had reached his limit
He gave in to the wicked voice within
Spread onto his face was an evil grin

He was no longer just a vessel
For he was now One
With the vile creature from Hell
The familiar voice from inside
The Unholy Guide